Sunday, July 12, 2009

Yahrzeit

One year since your body quit this earth & your soul flew (hopefully to a place of peace & freedom from all that ailed you)... Nearly three years since this picture was taken. I'm glad I at least have one photo of you with her. I'm also glad there is a teeny glimmer of pride & perhaps even joyful amusement in your eyes.

Dad and Dex - Aug 2006

Your 2nd & 3rd granddaughters arrived. But then mom left. Then you. Then your two children decided not to be brother & sister anymore. Blessings and grief, all intertwined. I'm not sure how I feel about any of this today, except to tell you I think of you (& mom) every single day. Sometimes with tears, often with smiles & laughter.

So, as your daughter, on this day of mourning & remembrance, I light a candle for you. Even if it wasn't always easy for either of us, I loved you dad. And damn, if I don't miss you something awful.

9 comments:

'Nette said...

Sending you hugs. And sometime in the future, you will be able to tell Dex all about her grandpa.

Smiling, Beguiling said...

Thanks Anette... hopefully, I'll get to tell her the bad AND the good, and she won't be skerrid. ;-)

Dee said...

That made me tear up. Hugs to you!

Joan Stewart Smith said...

Lovely!

Nydia said...

I cried! It's the first post I read on your blog ... I'm sorry for your loss and I look forward to following you ... I certainly hope brighter days for you ... from one single mom to another ...

Smiling, Beguiling said...

Thanks Nydia. I appreciate the comment!

Now, if I could just figure out a way to blog from my iPhone... I'd be here MUCH more often.

;-)

Smiling, Beguiling said...

Thanks Nydia. I appreciate the comment!

Now, if I could just figure out a way to blog from my iPhone... I'd be here MUCH more often.

;-)

Dee said...

That made me tear up. Hugs to you!

'Nette said...

Sending you hugs. And sometime in the future, you will be able to tell Dex all about her grandpa.