Saturday, August 2, 2008

'Til Death...

Here's the deal y'all. I want to get married.

There I said it. I've been afraid to say it, to admit it, to even consider the possibility that some day I'll be the girl whose guy gets down on one knee, looks me dead in the eyes and says, "Will you?"... But I do (no pun intended). I want that.

So I'm saying it out loud.

Please also know that I do not envision a white foofy dress or any of the cliché trappings of tradition or conventionality. I've never been one of those gals that has pictured her Perfect Wedding Day since she was little. I always figured we'd elope to some remote location, get married in our barefeet in the sand or on a cool grassy hill... just me, him & the dude officiating the vows (well, and Dex too of course).

I can tell you however that I've definitely pictured "The Guy". In all his tall, dark, green-eyed, tattooed, intelligent, musical, artistic, kind, intuitive, passionate, uber geeky, hotness. Dancing with me, loving me, talking or laughing into the wee hours, until death we do part.

So bring it on G-d. Yeah, yeah. I know I'm not quite ready yet, that I have some things still to iron out. But hey, I'm working on it. My heart space is open. I'm listening. And I'm willing to accept the possibility that the one I wanted wasn't the one you meant for me to have.

The End.

9 comments:

Amy said...

Isn't it odd, that girly-ness that we never thought we had in us? The wanting to be married? I totally know what you mean, my dear. And look what happened for me? I never dreamed it would happen....and it did. Hang tough!

fivehusbands said...

What a wonderful vision - and I want to help plan the wedding. I am very experienced!

jjodanger said...

*sigh* me too.

don't tell anyone. ; )

A Mama's Blog (Heather) said...

That is so romantic, and I really believe once you put something out there in the universe, it will happen. Good for you for knowing what you want, and putting it out there, and sharing it with us. :-)

Anonymous said...

Well, deciding you want this is a big part of the equation, that and being ready for it. So, now, when you least expect it - look out, and it will be there.

You and Dex deserve some happy-ever-aftering:)

Anne (da Jeanne Mom)

mY_LiLdEviL said...

I know how you feel!!! I have friends who have 'wedding' books that have the pics of their dress and where they want to get married and their cakes!!! I've always had an aversion to it...but, if you can say it, so can I. I want to get married someday...thank you, for your strength and love.

mY_LiLdEviL said...

I know how you feel!!! I have friends who have 'wedding' books that have the pics of their dress and where they want to get married and their cakes!!! I've always had an aversion to it...but, if you can say it, so can I. I want to get married someday...thank you, for your strength and love.

A Mama's Blog (Heather) said...

That is so romantic, and I really believe once you put something out there in the universe, it will happen. Good for you for knowing what you want, and putting it out there, and sharing it with us. :-)

Amy said...

Isn't it odd, that girly-ness that we never thought we had in us? The wanting to be married? I totally know what you mean, my dear. And look what happened for me? I never dreamed it would happen....and it did. Hang tough!