I feel like shit on a broccoli stick. Oh, and I totally suck.
This isn't what I wanted. Not even close. But what do you do when things don't change, you get no feedback, you've both dug your heels in & there's nowhere left to go? Do you keep hurting each other? Keep pretending that everything is groovy & that you don't mind being second fiddle? Keep on truckin' on, despite how lonely you feel?
One day at a time is swell except most days I need something a little more tangible & weighty than that. Besides, if someone has continually made it clear that they are NOT emotionally available, at what point do you acknowledge that fact & let them go?
I haven't got a clue.
All I know is... well, see the first sentence. That pretty much sums things up.