Monday, April 7, 2008

What to do?

I feel like shit on a broccoli stick. Oh, and I totally suck.

Really. Truly.

This isn't what I wanted. Not even close. But what do you do when things don't change, you get no feedback, you've both dug your heels in & there's nowhere left to go? Do you keep hurting each other? Keep pretending that everything is groovy & that you don't mind being second fiddle? Keep on truckin' on, despite how lonely you feel?

One day at a time is swell except most days I need something a little more tangible & weighty than that. Besides, if someone has continually made it clear that they are NOT emotionally available, at what point do you acknowledge that fact & let them go?

I haven't got a clue.

All I know is... well, see the first sentence. That pretty much sums things up.

4 comments:

Melissa said...

I totally respect how ur feeling right now. It took years just to finally let go of my partner in what ended up being a horrible relationship. It's been a year now that we have been apart and I am just now starting to grieve that loss. It's not easy, but you seem so very strong. Take care of yourself and your lil one.

Smiling, Beguiling said...

Thanks Melissa. Doing the best I can, one day at a time. Ha.

Smiling, Beguiling said...

Thanks Melissa. Doing the best I can, one day at a time. Ha.

Melissa said...

I totally respect how ur feeling right now. It took years just to finally let go of my partner in what ended up being a horrible relationship. It's been a year now that we have been apart and I am just now starting to grieve that loss. It's not easy, but you seem so very strong. Take care of yourself and your lil one.