Ack... the more I blog, the more blogs I read. And the more blogs I read(see), the less I like the way MINE looks. Using a blogger template is great for the Average Joan, but the Creative & Very Particular Side of Cheryl wants something far more spectacular, interesting and unique to look at. What can I say? If it can't be perfect, it just won't do!
Yes, I need to work on that ever growing pile of clutter in the garage & the pre-existing clutter in the cupboards. Yes, I should be thinking of some ways I can get this extra 75 pounds of weight off my 5'8" frame. Yeah, I need to practice cooking healthy Toddler Friendly meals. Finding something to do (even part time) that would bring me some income again wouldn't be a bad idea either (given how much money is flying OUT the door). Oh, and on top of all that... I need to buckle down in my therapy progress, focus harder on the "important things", brush my teeth, remind my toddler to brush hers too, visit my elderly father, clean the bathrooms from floor to ceiling w/ bleach, shop for a new bookcase & hall tree, detail my filthy car, fold the laundry, frame & hang art that is propped up against the walls, put Declan's toys away, stop missing Declan's daddy so damn much, fill the pool w/ more water, buy groceries, etc.
I've always had a Busy Brain and that's certainly gotten much worse since having a child b/c now it's coupled with Mommy Brain. I have these running lists of things I need to do, want to do, should do... but I can rarely focus on any ONE thing b/c my mind is always racing on to twelve other things that I think require my attention. Guess what that means folks? It means I'm not right here, in the here and now.
I really hate it when I have these moments of clarity about how UN-present I am. Just sayin'.
So... I'm going to call my doctor for reals this time. I want to get my hormones checked, my depression checked, my thyroid levels checked to make sure my levels aren't as out of whack as I already think they are. Guess I have one more thing to add to my HUGE laundry list above right?
See? I've already digressed. I still really want to change the way this blog looks. I know what features I want it to have (features I've seen on other blogs that really work for me). And I know what colors, photos, etc. I'd like to incorporate to make it more "me". Now, all I need is an ounce of spare time to squeeze in some redesigning efforts.
That's all folks. Stay cool out there, it's gonna be a righteous scorcher in SoCal today!